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Split or merge identities.

I want to publish to the public domain.

I want my mom to be able to comment privately.

I want to see reactions only from friends of friends or closer.

I want to only see discussion from people I follow and the people they engage with.

I want to be able to organize my inbox by nouns.

I want anyone be notified when my new work is published and be able to remix it.

I want anyone to be able to watch me work in live in real-time with playback options.

I want everyone to be able to configure these preferences without code, granularly.

At the Heartwood Chapel of Camp Navarro, where internet was intermittent, but connections were bountiful— a discussion began in a local-only, offline-first, serverless-multiplayer fashion.

Peer-to-Peer (p2p) has always been a wicked problem. Who can trust who? Should you trust me? Should I trust you? The peers discussed.

A factor in the challenge of trusted p2p applications is the size of the information being stored. When data is replicated across peers, the minds quickly fill up— or rather, phones run out of space.

Beyond that one axis though, could there be multiplayer applications where all peers have access to collaborative information across time and space?

The peers set to find out. Going round by round, each listing off the applications they use daily, their collective inventory had been taken.

Each application was quickly evaluated— would this still be useful for a closed-network of peers and will the data fit in the storage of each peer?

Slack? Yes. Closed Network. Email? No. Too federated. Wiki? Maybe. Context dependent.

Calendars? Photos? Notes? Blogs? Yes, yes, yes, yes.

At this point the peers collectively wondered, “What is the best way to tackle exactly this problem for collaborating on this blog post?”

  1. natsort
  2. focus-trap
  3. diffHTML
  4. QuillJS
  5. CodeMirror
  6. Motion One
  7. Tone.js
  8. MapLibre
  9. three.js

All of these are compatible with the Framework Du Jour.

I got back last week from Alaska. I was only there for a week, but I saw enough. Well, not enough, but enough for what I needed from the trip.

I wanted answers and clarity.

Last year I went to Egypt before starting on a new team at work.

On that trip, I chose to be true to myself and I took that home with me. The lessons I learned did not fare well for the station in life I found myself in when I came back.

After gestating for nine months, I was birthed out of the industry and into my new life.

I was reincarnated two months ago and only went through one round of modern technical interviewing. I banged a uey and got the hell out of dodge.

I don't deal well with limitations imposed by labels. My life is not a rubric anymore and I do not want it to be one again.

In Alaska, everyone cut it on their own with nature; not against it.

The thing I learned in my time spent between Da Nile and Denali is that I was in denial. You cannot dismantle the master's house with the master's tools.

It is time to change the game. I'm not alone. I'm with everyone that stands tall on their own.

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I learned the technical term “Code-switching” in a diversity and inclusion session at work.

Code-switching is divided into two types: language-based and culture-based, according to psychologist Beverly Tatum, PhD, race relations expert and author of Why Are All the Black Kids Sitting Together in the Cafeteria?

Code-switching is shifting or manipulating one's behaviors to appeal to a different crowd or audience

Code-switching can also be about altering your appearance to fit the norm of the environment you're in.

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Turns out I've been code-switching vocally since I was hooked on phonics as a child. It was only natural for me to code-switch as a software professional.

Then a pandemic happened.

I started code-switching in my own apartment.

Nah, not on my watch.

“I'm not trapped in here with you; you're trapped in here with me.”

Imagine I said this totally outloud at the button on the remote that says “Netflix”.

I stopped code-switching.

I wrote memos fully expressing and articulating myself as a human being. My dreams, my passions, my ambitions, my faults, and my failures.

It was nuts. People were like, “Yo, you can't just say that. Like, I fully and entirely agree with you, but like yo, you're gonna get yourself fired.”

And it didn't matter. I was still writing software that met the success criteria. I wasn't fired. My thoughts and opinions on the way of life and the world and how I fit into it do not matter to a global corporation. They only care about results and I gave them results.

I wasn't changing the world and the company in the way I thought I would.

So I stopped code-switching my code.

I committed digital suicide in my personal and professional life. Deleted my socials. Stopped using a Macbook. Ran from compilers and fully embraced scripting.

Wrote my own developer and designer tooling. Rejected the english bias. Literally began communicating in a foreign language that only I understood.

That's what happened. And I don't regret it because I stand for something I believe in and I like the friends I've made since coming into my own voice.

In other words

English is spoken by 20% of the world. English is required by 100% of software.

Therefore, to learn software one must first learn english.

Therefore, the most universally accessible software will require the least amount of english.

Upon following this rationale, I set out to determine a dictionary that might be taught to a non digital native to not only understand technology, but to communicate with it.


On: A workflow to be triggered when any concept is engaged in some capacity.

Read: Access current conceptual information.

Render: A documented representation of shared human and computer concepts.

Style: A declarative agreement on how a concept should be presented.

Write: Distribute new conceptual information.


That's the dictionary. However, it is not only words, it is code.

I wrote the first version in native web, but any language designer could adopt this terminology and abstraction.

While culturally valuable, this type of research simply is not in scope for an entertainment company in a downturned economy, so I lost funding.

With other factors contributing to downsizing, there simply wasn't another opportunity for me to be slotted into.

However, had things gone the way I envisioned them, this approach would be taught around the world to make the Netflix application more culturally vibrant, since any region could have a custom tailored experience made by themselves for themselves without needing to assimilate imperially to english computer completely or surrender to artificial intelligence.

I called that vision Mondrian and the people I respected understood it, which was all I needed to stand alone even though the easier path was to just code-switch and keep my job.

January 1st, 2021 was the first day I woke up without a google account. I'd spent the prior months preparing to disconnect.

Backed up my data a few days before. Migrated emails to my own domain name over years. It took time.

I had my data on a flash drive and my laptop.

The day I flashed my laptop with a new OS was the first time the flash drive stopped working. I don't even remember when that day was.

That was it. Not with a bang or a whimper.

I'm still alive. I woke up beside myself.

We went to Egypt last September. It is wrong to be drunk, gay, or a woman there. It was much like Liberty University. The only difference was the call to prayer was blasted through the loudspeakers for all to hear.

We're going to move soon. I was happy in Egypt. I had very little baggage. I didn't buy fancy new clothes. I brought myself.

But we can't move to Egypt. Or the parts of America that are too much like Egypt. There are tiny oasis-like places everywhere, sure. But the day-in, day-out, constant regressive banter is exhausting— let alone the world-view enforcement. Spare me the misplaced conclusions.

I lived in the heart of fake news for facism during my four years in Lynchburg, Virginia. It caused me to walk away from religion entirely; watching the spiritual solace I found in childhood be compromised by powerful people merging religion and politics into a winner take-all pledge to end civil rights— the exact opposite message I accepted from Jesus and my exact experience raised in an upper class church by a single mother from a lower class family, in hindsight.

You fucked my generation by not preparing for us. I had to move away from home to try and find my footing since many affordable housing projects were shot down by people protecting their real-estate interests. Supply and demand. The market decided, fewer homes means more valuable homes. I loved learning about this in church while watching my mother struggle to make ends meet, yet parroting our affluent oppressors. Kyriarchy.

Stunningly, the same people today complain about how no one wants to work anymore. The truth is: everyone that has any ambition to succeed in this life left your sorry ass at the gate to your suburb and never looked back. Everyone that remains are the people you, and your other wealthy friends, defeated that have become content in their station. Congratulations, here's your sign.

We're moving. Not far, but a move is enough to trigger a new round of reflections. Losing my job, getting married— thinking as a partner in a family now, what is my life going to look like?

Different than it is now. Different if we must keep moving.

I'm going to have less. I've held onto lots of little things over the years— just in case.

At this point, I've explored the things I want and the things I need. I've found the things I can repair and can live without the things I can't.

I know who I'm going to be and not just wondering about who I could be.

I just need to shut up and do it.

They say one bite at a time, but that's too easy to give up.

“I tried elephant once; I didn't like it.”

I don't want to speculate, but I will wager the meal wasn't prepared by Chef Ramsey.

So if eating an elephant one bite at a time is difficult and then even more difficult by choosing a quality cut and prep, how does one eat an elephant?

A lifestyle change. A new default.

“Elephants? Yeah, for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.”

You don't eat anything except elephants. No need to provide estimates. You'll eat elephants like steady state cardio with practice.

Not only will you be great at eating elephants, you'll be great at identifying, tracking, hunting, cleaning, cooking, preserving, and conserving them.

Everything else in your life will suffer as a result though. Do not actually eat elephants. I knew this dude once that just saw pink elephants and tripped balls for weeks. Cannot imagine what eating one would do. I guess if you're going to eat elephants, just avoid the pink ones.

But yeah, one bite at a time will never cut it. Live and breathe eating those elephants. You need to want it. No one will force you to eat an elephant.

If you find that you need an elephant eaten, but don't want to commit yourself to the endeavor, hire me. Trust me, I'm a professional.

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